So how was everyone's halloween? I saw a girl in lady gaga last night at Klapsons... didn't catch Bieber! Like quite fun ah. I think next year I shall do halloween parties. Its sunday today. I'm not at Dempsey I'm at the five start hotel :),But I reckoned later I'm gonna drop by holland V cause I'll be so restless here. Just got of the phone with L, talking about christmas party! Am gonna organize one at my place... probaly at london. and could bring my bull out for a good run with u guys!

sentosa spooktacular!

Appreciation

Oh My God! Last night was a blast! Glam and sexily greenie! Hot greenie! Like seriously I am so ... happy with EVERY SINGLE THING that happened last night. My mind body and soul was in sync.. with the help of my bestest cousiees, parents, guests, everything was so beautiful! Okay apart from the huge amount spent on my bday, I wanna say I love you MOM.. the party was about $5000, ahhh!! That aside, so good looking , so PR-ish, successful and supportive! The mum everybody want! Hahaha, everyone was so shocked mummy gave me a LONG MIGHTY prayer last night during cake cutting. But thanks to the most important lady in my life :) muarksss!

So now, I need to honour some very important people(best cousies cum BFFs) now that I'm 21!

Alexis Teo - Hey sexy ass!! You're so supportive and you are the epitome of everything everybody needs in a friend; I don't know how to express my appreciation for you! You never say no to me, you're always there and you always want to be there. Awww, thanks for everything you've done for me and my party bitch, you rock! Muarkksss

Audre Quah - okay as crude as it might sound, where the fuck are you now? haha, as much as the darling is missing amongst the crowd, you've always been there. Subtly but surely... I know it! I love your present! Thanks for the iphone4 bitch, you sure know me very well :)

Wendy Sim - Aiyo you so beautiful hot babe!! Thank you so much for doing SO MUCH for me in such a short span of time! You've definitely touched my heart in many many ways I am really grateful! The guestbook is sexily done and speaks so much about who you are huh! You are a sexy women! Thanks a million hun!

Sindy Ang - HAHAHA! We are both gossipers (after you turn 21 next year), we are all looking forward to your party now!! But thank you for being there for me, so supportive and so FUCKING HOT yourself everyone wants to do you now (hahah joking), and of course genuinely gentle and caring. I know a side of you nobody knows... I can't explain but anyway doesn't matter. Its between both of us! Love you bitch!

Marcus Thng - Wahhhhh my best friend cousie for 7 years already! You've watched me grown into a man omg!! I'm so happy we're still bffs apart from your busy insurance schedule! Gonna join in soon!! Hehehe. Thanks Bro!

Jun Jia - JJ!!!! You always wanna be there for me, so nice! You treat me like your xiao didi I feel so small! Thanks for all the care and concern you've shown to me, I appreciate everything you've done although you were a big bully to me last time :( Love u!

Daniel Nicholas Seow - YOU! OH MY GOD. What to say about you? Well, its complicating sometimes but I trust that we are so comfortable with each other, no secrets now. Thank you for being there during my down time, you saw me really cry and sob and all that shit! Thank you Dan... always appreciated :)

Okay, I know there are soooo many people in my life that deserves a shout out, but these 8 people are like family! thank you everyone for last night, hope you had a blast!

Okay just a quick entry,  going out with cousins! On a birthday celebration! I'm really excited cause its been way too long since I had like a day out all for me. Like its all eyes on me! Haha anyway I love Tiff! Teeeheee! Unfortunately, my eyes are about to close because of late night preparation and I got home straight away on skype with N for about an hour. 

Now where do I begin? Today.. my heart was in bit and pieces because I was just confused about myself, my life, what I really wanted, whose there...who isn't... many many things. So it was like a myriad of thoughts and emotional roller coasters because I'm god damn sure my life has evolved 180 degrees and transformed entirely since the past 6 months; its quite hard to keep up really. Nevertheless, apart from all that bullshit, I think I'm ready... to take on a new course and a different direction. I need to stop all that thinking... life needs to move forward and I need to go somewhere and thank God for you now. It definitely takes more than one sided stability to work this out and I hope we can..

That aside, I bought 3 international calling cards to call. I miss you and its awfully quiet without you around. Silent bbm kills.. slowly. Haha. But yea, we've been talking. Miss the hugs, I want one badly now. Although its ironically funny.. after that shit happened... everything was messy. Then when we need to built up again, you're away. Omg!! Bad timing. I just can't wait for the vacation! At the end of the day, you know what I want and I'm so happy we can talk at the level we cannot reach with anyone else, every night is just really comfortable.

Aight, there's gonna be a long entry tonight! Wait up ok! Today's gonna be a busy day. .. arghh..Got to arrange my party things... busy beee on the run.bye!

 HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Thanks for all the wonderful wishes girls and boys, so sweet! 


Well, I really feel so loved and blessed. Its my birthday today and even thou I'm stuck at home, I really know who are the people that really care for me in my life and I love everything thats going on right now. And the birthday wishes I am indeed quite overwhelmed by the response that ppl actually bothered to wish me a Happy Birthday. Teeheee!

First things first, HAPPY 21ST TO ME! I'm so happy right now I can't sleep and I need to blog this. My BFFS came down to surprise me! Not forgetting Rodday, the first person that gave me a huge ass for one person only Hagen Dazz Cake! I loved it to bits it tasted so good! Of course a birthday hug felt way better! Next, Megan came down! Omg, my best friend so nice! Best girl friend actually.. hehe, she bought me B&J big tub. thank you BFF! Then was Tiff,Beverly and Henser!! I was so surprised they were gonna come down cause they had work later... and I am so happy! Especially for Megan who is packed, thanks for making time down sweets :)

 just had my lunch at 4pm! My 21st birthday is on next sat but totally doesn't feel like it. Maybe since the torment I have been getting extraordinary care and attention so I don't really want much of it on my birthday. 

hmm...So the champagne has been settled for the party..looks a lot? Totally no, I need to get more. told mom to  set herself free on sat because we need to shop for beers (heineken/corona?) and buckets? Chocolates perhaps. I'm getting all the invites but never a practice to celebrate but nevertheless.. I'm gonna hang out with my cousins at Joel's new condo at Regency House Orchard! Omg!! I never thought I'd step into that place but he stays there now, so a few of us are gonna have a Bikini pool party chilling with wine, cocktail stuff like that. 

Anyway, Nicole's leavin tmr for Bangkok. She's opening for Benny Benassi omg wish I could be there to hear all that electro noise but there's so much going on for me here too. I'm so proud of her! Benny and Nicole!! Wow really! Alright, some random photos for you guys..  I was clearing the boxes, opening the MOETS to see if they looked good enough at the party or was enough for 100 people. I think I need to get 4 more bottles. I also reckoned some of my cousins would be bringing champagne to the party! Joel already bought a few for me! woooo!

back from my trip

 

 Was with my friend to get MOETS at a good price. still lacking A LOT more. I have 16 bottles for about 80 people. Do you think its enough?

my birthday is arriving but why am i not feeling excited about it?

anyway..So far I've received an iphone 4 and a canon IXUS camera from my cousin and BFFS. Thank you so much :) Turning 21 is gonna be the best thing that happens.

i can't wait for Bali.

Well I'm still really depressed.. about career exams,party. life.. losing a lot of focus and direction but am reassured everything is ok. We had a good talk and everything is good now :)

won't be online from tmrw till sat again. will be having a good time somewhere before hell stress comes back.

off to HK tmrw..

back to singapore and off to HK tmrw guys and i wont be online till monday.

todays dinner

just got back from the doctor. I only have one bloody thing to say about doctors in LA. LAZY, SNOBBISH and FUCKED! They take their own sweet time you know. Omg, I waited 30mins for my family doctor just because he felt like attending to one patient who had 3 kids and all kids were sick... so the queue outside was major long. I was so pissed that i walked my way to another street family clinic. CASH ONLY!! OMG? people nowadays so electronic savvy, rich people all use card now and they only accept CASH TERMS. So stingy these doctors! Can't even pay for the convenience of sick patients just to save their monthly merchant fee!

These people are seriously selfish! Anyway that aside, i have sore eyes. and my partners also have an eye infection, hope everyone gets better :)  I'm so afraid to get sick because sick means money and time wasted. 

Anyway earlier this afternoon, me and partners had sheesha at a great place with awesome ambience alike to dempsey.Dan,my buddy here goes there every week and he was always talking about bringing us to sheesha. So 4 for us headed for a ride with 2 bikes and it was so fun! The wind gushing on our bodies and the satay, and sheesha so nice! Will go back next week!

Had dinner at Gubler today. It a fine french restaurant w very nice food! One of my friend's invited me to share a celebration evening. well served with superb butler service. The food portion was very small, although it looks really big to me. I didn't finish it; I had not appetite. The table was generous with wine and champagne, unfortunately yet again, I didn't touch much. Baguette and butter was so good... today's special for dinner was the use of truffle. All dishes were prepared lovingly with the wonderful truffle and its essential oils.

i had a great day. what about you? 

needa mug on my reports and notes now. miss ya! goodnight!

With lots of love,

Eugene

If it's from you I don't mind hurting

so many things keep running through my mind. but at this period of time, i don't know who to turn to. And yes, you might think we are doing great, but the truth is actually we aren't..
i can't sleep and i am having very bad sore throats. Gonna source for sore throat tablets later.

I'm tired of feeling tired.

Went over hollywood blvd just now and it was a great place compared to my area i am located at. watch a live performance of some singers on stage at a bistro round the corner. i was taken aback by the sharpness of a singer singing "how do i live without you" by leann rimes. 

A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.

I had such an exhuasting day..still trying to discuss on company's expansion and some theory are like a baffling mystery for me.. 

now imma still working out at this late night. but guess i should be done with it now. now more energy to carry on..goodnight.

loves,

Eugene

Please stop procrastinating and go to bed..

some people would just look down on you once u stop your education or when u don't have enough qualification.

well, my education journey didn't come to an end. I am just pausing for the time being due to some reasons which u guys don't need to know. and please stop sending me PMs asking me why and why i did not reply. Fuck it!

Thanks followers and readers for you inspirational quotes that gave me more confidence in life and a stronger driving power towards the goals i am targeting for.

To answer some of your questions( i dont have time for formspring) so.. here u go..

(1) since you have almost have everything you want including big cars and houses(though not under your name), do you have any other dreams.-yeah so as when you have mentioned they are not under my name, i am striving for my first property(probaly a penthouse) and a car under my own name. 

(2) what happened to you and your gf?- the wires have jumbled up, trying to untangle it.

(3) will u come back to the music industry in future?- yes i will, when i have the time, i will probaly be trying drums. hah!

its 11pm, i am about to sleep. chatted with chris for about an hour. 

oh guys, if you would wanna chat with me, please sign up for google talk. 

if you are using windows.. 

-go to google.com and type gtalk for windowsxp/vista.. etc.

for mac OS

-go google.com and type gtalk for mac.

signing up is free and we can chat using gtalk. it's not laggy at all as compared to msn.

guys,after u sign up and wish to chat with me.. you can drop a PM in FB.

Time here is 16hrs behind singapore. I need to turn in at 11pm every night. let me know, hear from you soon.. :)

sick of life! sometimes i wanna say, "Fuck you, you fucking asshole." But my mind says, "Just forget it." Those promises were just a lie. Sorry, please check what's the meaning of burden. Trying to escape from things lighten my burden?! Oh Jeez! Wake up your idea!

There is a difference between love and like, wrong and right. Never ... run if you're not ready to step .And never forgive if you're not ready to forget.

It's something unpredictable but in the end it's alright. i hope you had the time of your life.

love and doubt had always been on  speaking terms. Get your facts first then you can distort them as you please.

Get this right

It takes a moment to tell someone you love them, but it takes a lifetime to prove it.

you make your decision. i shall only respect your last decision. nv look back and never ever regret. 

goodnight.

MJ & JEREMY, enjoy your trip in HK. It's a very nice place, shop till you drop. i tend to overspend whenever doing my shopping there.
I wouldn't be waiting for you guys, just JOKING with your only.
I am flying off in hours time . did shopping at Wong Kok today also and some scenery snapping.
Exhausted and taking a short rest at hotel before leaving to HK airport.
XOXO.

1st year work anniversary

Celebrating my 1st year anniversary into the industry and thanking all of you who have been constantly supporting me in whatever I do. Lovess~~

The 1st year have been a great run for me and I want to extend my heartfelt thanks and gratitude to all of you.

Thanks for sticking with me though thick and thin, ups and downs, the good and bad. You all have been amazing and gave me the endless motivation to keep on going. 

It's not going to be any easier for the years to come, but I will continue to do my best to contribute to the community and industry.

Thanks for all your touching messages and continuous support. Although sometimes I do not have time to reply all of you, but I know that each one of your messages is very special and touching.

Last but not least, thanks to all my girlfriends as well as fellow magician friends.
All your encouraging words are enough to keep me going!!! I love each and every single one of you!!! :) ♥♥♥

best of me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ow6osGF3RVc

i miss you..

Hi there,Back in Singapore and off to Hong Kong yesterday. Taking my lunch break to do blogging. 

So many days missing from blog and Fb cuz was back in Singapore and spend time with my buddies out there. 

We had great fun last few days. Thank you once again, Dennis..Sheng Quan..Jeremy.. Mei Jia(The stalker)

haha, followers.. my apologies for my late replies.

Imma going off to USA tmrw and will not be sure if i could log into facebook for the next following days. Stay tuned to my blog!

Time flies.. it was such a pain to leave my buddies. Sigh. anyway u guys take good care out there. i will be missing you.....

Reflections

Dear,I believe a strong woman like you may be stronger than a man like me, particularly if u happen to have love in your heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible.

Don't cry,i will be right here when your world starts to fall.it's alright. your tears will soon be dry and u will soon b free to fly.

Allow me to voice within myself..

WHEN you're safe inside your room, you tend to dream. Of a place where nothing is harder than it seems. I know there's no one who will ever wants to explain or bothers to explain, of the heartache life can bring and what it means. 

Have u ever wondered? U work so hard.. end of the day what do u get? You come with nothing, same goes when u r leaving. Just be contempted with what you have in life. Don't dream to high,don't dream too much. 

Sometimes the way u wrote to me, don't hide..you will never change if you just run away. Listen to me..Just hold tight and soon you will see your brighter day.Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed, it's so hard to stand your ground if you're so afraid.

Dear friends, even now we are in different worlds, my soul would always revolve around you. Remember. You're all my treasured friends in my heart. You know it best yourself.

No one reaches a hand for u to hold,so.. when you're lost outside, look inside to your soul.

i believe that life is a journey.It can take you anywhere u choose to go.As long as you're learning, it will take u wherever u want to go... Goodnight.

Hi there...It's a great great Friday for me. I got loads of free gifts from my US Suppliers. An Apple Ipad, A patek phillipe watch worth 45K. Gawd! i was drooled man..

Had a wonderful time with my suppliers having yummy ice-cream. Sweet! Ice cream is named as summer here. So when u would order for one in US, nv call ice-cream. It's summer! I had choco candy ice cream at this place called " Toscaininis Ice cream" stall which is one of the popular ice cream shops in LA. heheee.

After which i went to have my dinner and chill out at this place,"Casey's Irish Bar & Grille". Damn i had a GrilLed STEAK and a bottle of tequila and martini with my partners. cost SGD 360. Is it ex? Hahaha.

We had a long drive down this place, at least it's a better developed place in LA. 

Feelin' a lil' high after drinking.But shiok!Tonight i can sleep well.. 

Unhealthy me, always have a heavy meal and straight after that, lying flat on bed. lol! Gonna head up San Gabriel Mountain later for an exercise with my partners so ... its time for my nap!

Footprints in the sand

OH its time to turn in soon and connection seems pretty bad to chat. Well friends, its a lil disappointing but just bare with it. You shall still get my updates here and make yr comments if you've your gmail account.

Smile everyone! i'm doing better each day. Thank you for the inspirational and motivational quotes you guys sent me. It leaves my spirit higher.  Thank you once again.

All of you have been very good friends, very sweet friends indeed. :) 

To my brother out there, hope you are moving on well.  Life still goes on without me. Yeah, you're the only one who really knew me at all. We been through thick and thins together and we've shared the laughter and pain, and even shared the tears.

If you come over now and visit me. Every step i'm taking and every thing i am doing, is just purely a word. "An empty space". There's really nothing here left to remind me. Just the memory of your face.

i wish i could make you turn around and see me cry.. But that would be in my dreams. Cuz if i would to, i wouldn't bare to walk away. This sounds emo, because i really do miss u. MISS everyone at home and my beloved one especially. How's life recently?

hmm..thinking back. when i was still in Singapore, i longed to meet u but yet i can't make it because again.. i am very busy. sigh~

There's so much i need to say to u..

Even when i'm extremely busy with work, my head revolves around you. Do you really know?

Sigh~ how i wish if i could tell GOD not to leave me in all this pain. Beloved sweetheart, how i wished if you could be in my arms and hold me tight. I miss your hugs and kisses...

<3

Melody of Lonliness

Hv u felt that lonely before? How lonely can you be? Had a damn exhausting day and guess i need to get over this feeling soon. i can't go on like this else my health will deterioate faster and panda eyes will be out soon. Haha. I love the snow out there. It's freaking darn cold.Playing with my new canon 550D with its new lens 150-500mm FS-6.3 APO DG OS telefoto lens. Girls out there, becareful! i can stand about a kilometre away and take a snap of you. Aren't you afraid? Haha but i like!
Friends, you guys asked me to start this blog. I didn't fail to update everyday.Miss you guys so much!
How i wished if someone could get me a bot of distilled water now. Drinking coke every single day is killing. but how? no choice... u gotta simply take public transports to supermarkets to grab one. i'm so lazy for that.

Staying in guest house is quite good afterall. At least..i have some partners out here to communicate with but no during midnight/ wee hours. :)
It's been a longest winter without you..sigh. i didn't know where to turn to. How're you my dear?
Every night it's not because of the weather but reason behind is being that i miss the closest ones, my dearest ones very very much. Do ya know?Your are living there with friends and enjoying i guess?
Somehow i can't forget your,after all that we've been through.
All i know is i will be okay...it will hurts when it heals.i know.. sigh~~ it will all get better in time. trust me.
Each time when u talk to me, i need to give you a smile.. deep in my heart, its burning.. its tearing.. do u feel me?i'm gonna smile cos i deserve to.

Was it all that easy to just put aside your feelings? it's 11pm. I'm turning in. Goodnight.

Sleepless nights zzzz

It's 3am in US. I'm located in some part of los Angeles. Hahaa u might be wondering why i am up at this time. I've not sleep and i really have sleepless nights. The weather is very cold here.. even the moisturer doesn't helps me. I got to apply another olive oil and allow it to dry before applying another oil called the winter oil. hahaha.
I'm again very tanned. because in an hour's time, its gonna be very sunny and i will stay in the sun till about 6-7am with my baby mac accompanying me throughout this 3hrs or so. You will get real dark here when u tan yourself under the sun because the sun is a real stinger and the weather is freaking cold.
It's like when u tanned yourself with tanning oil in Singapore..after an hour later u go to that pool of water and tan yourself again.
I should be going off to HK in a few days time and i will very much love the weather there more than Singapore and in US/ London. Hahaha
Thanks for everyone's support.My business is rapidly expanding globally.It's a tough period for me now.. and i would probaly neglect many of my good/best friends. Hope to see your soon. Don't miss me too much.