Okay just a quick entry,  going out with cousins! On a birthday celebration! I'm really excited cause its been way too long since I had like a day out all for me. Like its all eyes on me! Haha anyway I love Tiff! Teeeheee! Unfortunately, my eyes are about to close because of late night preparation and I got home straight away on skype with N for about an hour. 

Now where do I begin? Today.. my heart was in bit and pieces because I was just confused about myself, my life, what I really wanted, whose there...who isn't... many many things. So it was like a myriad of thoughts and emotional roller coasters because I'm god damn sure my life has evolved 180 degrees and transformed entirely since the past 6 months; its quite hard to keep up really. Nevertheless, apart from all that bullshit, I think I'm ready... to take on a new course and a different direction. I need to stop all that thinking... life needs to move forward and I need to go somewhere and thank God for you now. It definitely takes more than one sided stability to work this out and I hope we can..

That aside, I bought 3 international calling cards to call. I miss you and its awfully quiet without you around. Silent bbm kills.. slowly. Haha. But yea, we've been talking. Miss the hugs, I want one badly now. Although its ironically funny.. after that shit happened... everything was messy. Then when we need to built up again, you're away. Omg!! Bad timing. I just can't wait for the vacation! At the end of the day, you know what I want and I'm so happy we can talk at the level we cannot reach with anyone else, every night is just really comfortable.

Aight, there's gonna be a long entry tonight! Wait up ok! Today's gonna be a busy day. .. arghh..Got to arrange my party things... busy beee on the run.bye!