i feel so bad for rejecting you but im sorry, i decided to keep u out of my life. It hurts too much with you in it.

For so many years that i've been with u. Yes, we've really went through ups and downs and i've enjoyed our friendship. Ever since you've changed, everything was different. How i wished you were like your old self.

i decided to shut u off because after several thoughts, i know being just a normal friend wouldn't work because you simply wouldn't allow it to happen.

Therefore, for time being... i might want to shut u off from my life. 

I NEED TO WRITE THIS OUT:

For a friend who will just know you for years and never get a chance to analyse your inner self, there would still be your good friend.(Their friendship with u is still shallow)

For a friend like me, or some smarter that left you.. i hope you put in effort to change because along the road down, you might not know who to turn to in future when u need help.I've also spent my time that previous day talking to you till about 4am.Those that you know will be good enough for you to change and reflect right now.

There are too many inperfections, to whom is concern.